An awkward sunset

I am lonely as I stand before Your sunset.
I want him next to me,
But instead it's You.
Forgive me, Father, for wishing it was him.
At the same time, I am hopeful...
And happy to be there alone with You.
We stand there together as I cry, and grapple,
And hold my breaking heart.
You hold my breaking heart.
And for a moment, I find no joy in Your sunset.
All I see is loss.
All I see is that I've lost the sun...
And I'm all alone
With a sky on fire for You.
And for a moment, I find pure joy in Your sunset--
A promise of the sun's return tomorrow
After it visits the other lonely creatures
Of this small, lonely world.
I am not the only lonely one tonight.
You comfort me with this sad truth.
And you remind me I am not alone...
I am never alone.
In this dark, empty apartment,
Sits the Son.
And when I sit with Him,
He either cries with me,
Or dries all my tears away.

Double Tall Mocha

Her hand grabs the coffee in front of me,
And I see she's wearing my ring.
I almost add vomit to her double tall mocha,
Instead of whipped cream.
All I can do to keep from making a scene
Is to listen to her story of "how it all worked out..."
How true, lasting love does exist--
Not just in the world,
but in my neighborhood.
Хвала Бога.
You do come through.